I've Cracked

I have seriously lost it. My stress level has reached a new high.

I do not swear and I have NEVER in my life flipped anyone off.

I did both to this lady who cut in front of me in a drive thru line. She was the SECOND person to cut in front of while I was busy being nice and letting those who actually parked in the parking lot, out. And then she had the gall to look at me like she was there first. I honked, I called her a nasty name, I then flipped her off and left.

I have NEVER flipped anyone off and I have NEVER called a stranger a bad name like that.

I am yelling at my kids. And I was just rude to the cute little kid who cleans our pond.

I want to throw this dang boot in the pond. I want to shoot out the hot sun. I want to blow up my messy house that I can't keep up with because I can't walk.

I am just angry at the world right now.

I have had it. I need to be admitted now. I also need to go to confession for the things I did today. Oh wait, I'm not a Catholic anymore. But I will be praying tonight.

The Boot

I went to the Orthopedist today. I have been having a pain in my foot for 2 months now. But with Keira going into the hospital and other life events happening, I kept putting it off. Well a couple of weeks ago I tweaked my ankle because I am babying my foot so much. It only got worse, so I finally went in to see the doc.

I went in wearing my comfy blue crocs Steve got me and came out with this...





I have fractured my foot. Do you have any idea what it is like to be wearing this huge bulky HOT boot in the heat of a Texas summer? Or worse, to be wearing this thing while trying to take care of three little girls? Steve is out of town and I am all alone. I am suppose to stay off my feet. HA! I have to wear this thing for a month to see if it helps or not. If not, I need to have a bone scan done. They wanted to do one now, but I am nursing and to do a bone scan they have to inject stuff into my system. Not cool when breastfeeding a newborn. So it is the boot for now.

I am not in a good mood about this. I can't drive because it is on my right foot. Um, yeah right. I have a 3 month old to carry, feed, change, bathe, etc. A two year old who is potty training right now and doing so well. But is a little obsessed with the toilet paper. And a four year old who needs attention because Daddy is out of town and she is upset. Plus the two older ones both start school in a couple of weeks. I have to drive them there. This is just not cool. Not cool at all.

Violated

Some idiots broke into my truck and stole almost everything out of my purse. I am so pissed. It is partially my fault for leaving my purse in the truck. But the truck is usually parked in our garage. Right now I can't park it there because we have one of those travel storage things on top. So it sat in our driveway and we got robbed.

So today I spent over four hours in two trips to the DMV to get a new license. I have spent several hours on the phone with all sorts of business' trying to cancel this, re-order that, etc. I need to tackle the Social Security office soon.

The idiots even used my card three times. But it looks like two if not all of the charges were caught by the bank. Oh, can I just say a HUGE kuddos to BofA. They flagged my account the first time my card was used by them. The second time they immediately locked it and e-mailed AND called me to check on it. How cool is that? Way to go Bank of America.

We filed a police report and found out they broke into 5 other vehicles on our street that night. So hopefully they will catch them by looking at the video tapes at the gas stations they used my card at. We'll see.

It just pisses me off that I was the one to be victimized, and yet I am the one doing the "time". The one having to pay for all the replacements. What a pain in my arse.

Words of advice...
1) Never leave your purse in the car. Never leave anything of importance in your car.
2) Try to park your vehicle in a garage if you can. (Clean out your garage if you must.
3) Definitely do not leave your garage door opener in your car if you park outside your garage.
4) Even if the crime seems small and you don't want to "bother" the police. Do it. You never know what might happen. You may not be the only one who got victimized.
5) Do not carry your SS card in your wallet or purse. And always keep a certified copy of your birth certificate in your home.

It's been a long and tiring day/weekend. I am off to bed to rest up for a new day. Night.

All's Clear

I can see clearly now, the rain is falling.
It's gonna be a bright bright bright bright sunshiny day.

Hehe. Ok, so when I was in the 7th grade my mother took me to get my eyes checked for the first time at a teachers suggestion. Sure enough, I needed glasses. Now I can't remember if I got glasses and then lost them and could afford replacements or if we just couldn't afford them from the get go. Either way, I did not have glasses growing up. When I met my DH he convinced me to get checked again and if needed, get glasses. So I did, and I did. But I had no clue what kind of glasses I would want to wear, so I just randomly picked a pair that I ended up not really liking so then never wearing.

Fast forward five years. I am ready to make a commitment. We went yesterday to get our eyes checked again. Make sure our prescriptions hadn't changed, and then we each got two new pairs. I got a pair of sunglasses because I can not stand the sunlight. It kills my eyes. And then I got these.



What do you think? I wanted something different and stylish.

So on another note, while I was at the eye docs, he found a "large scar" behind my right eye. He asked if I had ever had any trauma to my eye or if any other doctor had mentioned it before. Nope and nope. He said there is a chance it could be a malignant tumor. HUH? So now we have to keep an eye on it to make sure it does not change shape or size. Great, huh? So we will see...literally.

But for now, I am stylin in my new shades...and glasses.

I've Been Tagged

I got tagged by Tiburon so I guess I have to fill this out...

4 things about me you may not have known: (This is tough as I am an open book)
1. I was robbed at knife point when I was 18 and got my neck slit
2. I can not kill anything. Not even a spider.
3. I have never done an illegal drug.
4. I have an oral obsession. I eat sunflower seeds like crazy. Gnaw on Gobstoppers. Chew on Jerky. Anything to keep my mouth busy. Hence why I talk to much.

4 Jobs I've Had:
1. Bartender
2. Promotions Girl with a Country Music Radio Station
3. Taco Bell Manager
4. Office Manager/Bookkeeper/Cat Groomer and Boarder for a Cat Store

4 Movies I can watch over and over again:
1. Pretty Woman
2. Crash
3. Grease
4. American President

4 Favorite TV shows:
1. Grey’s Anatomy
2. Las Vegas
3. Lost
4. CSI

4 Favorite Hobbies:
1. Playing on the computer
2. Photography
3. Eating. I love food.
4. Spoiling my girls.

4 Places I have lived:
1. San Jose, CA
2. Manhattan, KS
3. Ft. Worth, TX
4. Dallas, TX

4 Favorite Foods:
1. Almost anything Pasta
2. Almost anything with Avocado
3. Turkey Jerk - Teriyaki
4. Salads

4 Places I would rather be right now:
1. Yosemite
2. Maui
3. Paris
4. Nice Hot Bath

4 Websites I check daily:
1. My blog - and all my buddies
2. J05moms.com
3. Dallas Area Moms
4. Yahoo e-mail

4 People I tag:
1. Aimee
2. Beth
3. Krysta
4. Rach

To Add To Our Wonderful Day

A little beauty added in.



I took these of my Hibiscus plant this morning. These are in a pot in front of our house. I got these when I was pregnant with Keira. It is her flower.

And then we have had several lilies on our pond, but these two in different colors right by each other was just to beautiful not to capture.


They reminded me of Juls and Sevi. Two of the most beautiful little girls but two of the most opposite little girls.

Rachel Ray and a Mac

We got a new Mac computer yesterday. It is going to be our Media computer. All our songs for our iPods and all the thousands and thousands of photos I take. It is a very nice computer. I used Macs at my last job, but I have forgotten quiet a bit. I need to reacquaint myself with them. We will be taking to the Apple store on Saturday to ask questions and to get the iTunes set up on it so we can have to accounts on it. Music is a big part of our lives. DH is a HUGE music nut and I have this knack of knowing the words to songs but not who sings them. We make a great team. Songs and music play a big role in our lives. I hope our girls have our love of music. Julia already seems to. She could sing along with songs at a very early age. And now Sevi has a song she knows and sings to. I keep meaning to get it on video. It's so cute. Julia's first song was "Knock Knock Knocking on Heaven's Door". Not sure that is the right name, like I said, I know lyrics, Steven knows who sings it and the name of the song. No Sevi's first song is "Hallelujah" from Shrek I believe. Bon Jovi has a version of it out now. I need to get that copy. I'd rather have Jon singing it to me. Ha!

As for Rachel Ray. My SIL Mary, is going to be on Rachel Ray. She just happened to e-mail them asking for more recipes for the fish and game that her husband kills. It seems all e knows to do with it is fry it and she is looking for something more healthy. Well they actually responded and came out to her house and filmed for a day. Even went fishing with Aaron. Now they are flying them out to NY this Sunday to film the rest of the show on Monday and Tuesday. I will have to post when we know the day it will air. I am not a fan of hunting and fishing at all, but I will watch this since it IS my SIL.

Day at the Spa

Today I was doing some pampering to myself while Sevi and Keira napped. Juls came in and saw me with a facial mask on and asked if she could do one. Why not?

She loved it and is STILL telling me how soft her face is. LOL I believe THIS is why I was given three beautiful little girls.

Something New Everyday

I had never seen this video before. I love this song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Epow4VXhnW0

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Bye Bye Jacob

My 13 year old nephew has been here with us for the past week. It is a deal we have with my sister. When her kids turn 13, their Birthday present from us is a trip to TX (they live in CA).

I feel kind of bad. When our first nephew came out, we only had one daughter and she was around a year old. I was ok with leaving her with my In-laws while I spoiled my nephew with trips to Six Flags and Hurricane Harbor, etc.

Now we have three daughters and one who is only 2 months old. We did go to San Antonio, the Alamo, Sea World, River Walk, and Market Center. But I still feel bad. He has "had" to help with the girls instead of having a fun vacation. I admit, it has been a great help having him here. I just wish we could have spoiled him a bit more.

I am going to miss him. I miss all of my family back home. I always get sad when it comes time to say good bye. It is so hard to only see them a couple of times a year. They change so much. And in times like now (Baby Jamison) I feel so helpless. I have missed funerals and births. Many many birthdays. I treasure these moments I do get with my family. I have really enjoyed getting to know my Nephew one on one. My sister makes some good kids.

Angels In Unusual Places

I have yet to write about Hannah. Words have never been my strong point. So I can't even begin to explain how I feel. It would sound so dumb. Especially compared to some of my friends who are very eloquent with their words. They pretty much have all said what I am feeling. But some day, soon I hope. I will put something to "pen".

For those of you who do not know (how could you NOT know if you know me?). Hannah was a 5 year old little girl who lost her precious life two weeks ago. She drowned. ....See, I keep looking for words to type to explain such a horrific event, and I just can't. My eyes well up and my brain shuts down.

Anyway, this week my family and I went to San Antonio. We took my Nephew from California with us. He is 13. When our nieces and nephews turn 13, we give them a trip to Texas for their Birthday. So as any 13 year old Boy would want, we took him to Hooters for lunch on the River Walk. While we were there, my 4 year old has to go potty. So we head to the restroom. Now this is a place for men usually. So it was very apparent where the Men's bathroom was. Plenty of signs and pictures and such. The women's restroom was back in a corner barley noticeable. One small sign on the door. The inside was very plain. Nothing special by any means, which I would expect at Hooters.

But over on the counter in the corner was the most beautiful Yellow Lilies in a vase. Fresh cute Lilies. I just stood there and stared at them. They were so out of place in there, and yet so beautiful. One even opened up while I was staring at it. It made me immediately think of Hannah. She would have thought those flowers were beautiful and giggled at what an odd site to see in the ladies bathroom at Hooters.

Hannah, you are still making me smile.